Late Apology

Hello there, thanks for coming to this topic. Just wanted to share something about my atWar history and see if any of this puts a better light on how you view me as a player and as a person. I will attempt to address a little bit of my history, and then my attitude and my clan-hopping.

Starting with my history, when I joined atWar in mid-2015 I was a very quirky player. This game was essentially the first online community I had experienced, and for a while I really wasn't all there (and still may not be). I clan-hopped a lot because of this issue, but that will be discussed later.

As I got older and spent more time in the game, I realized how stupid I was to have acted the way I did, and for all of you who I have acted wrong towards, I want to apologize for my selfish, uncaring, despicable behavior to the community, and to name a few specifics, Phoenix, clovis1122, Laochra, ROYAL, GOW, Heat Check, Cold Case, Safari, Trystane, Google Chrome, among many others that I do not remember at this moment.

This is not me trying to get sympathy either, that I don't deserve and cannot even bring myself to accept from other atWar players anymore. Somehow, I think that some players will also view me as trying to become relevant again, but that is up to them. My goal with this post is that I have changed and I still need to change more.

About my attitude, I started the game very selfish and proud of myself. I thought I was so good that I could do somewhat competitive play at r4 through the training at ENIGMA.
Obviously, I was mistaken, but it took me till r7 when I got beaten badly by a series of pros in duels to teach me this. Since that time, I have tried training, I have tried practicing, but never seemed to get any better, because of my attitude.

My pride was also the reason I left the clan I was in to start NEXUS, a clan that at the original time it was founded had way too high dreams from its leader. Again, I thought I could do whatever I wanted even though I had played the game for a little more than a month.

For clan-hopping, I joined 13th legion first, and left in under two weeks because it was dead and still is to this day. 4 days later I joined ENIGMA where I stayed until I founded NEXUS in my stupidity. From then on, I hopped around atWar trying to find a place to settle down, and really was my own undoing, though I blamed everyone else all the time, as EC will know firsthand.

To conclude, the only real reason I wrote this post was to somewhat give an apology and my perspective on my now almost two years on atWar. In no case am I quitting, I have decided to put these issues behind me, and I will see what happens from here on out. Again, no sympathy asked for, and thanks for reading.

You should hang out with gardevoir

Zenith your issue from my point of view always seemed like you wanted greatness without putting in the time or effort, like those before you. I personally have no issue with you, just an outside observation.

Now we gonna get al the "new me, I am sorry, please accept my apologies" threads again.

Its a fucking game not a dick, dont take it so hard and serious.

Kirjutas Khal.eesi, 08.06.2017 at 15:20

You should hang out with gardevoir

Hey, I hang with gardevoir and we definitively don't need zenith